Understanding what truly makes us happy can be hard at times. We are filled with so much happiness from outside sources too often, I know this is true for me.
I'm going to pause here and analyze the fact that I'm constantly wondering what makes me happy. My family makes me happy; my son, my mother, my sisters they all fill me with joy. I've said it too many times. It's too easy for me to tell you what I can go to to feel happy.
My question to myself is how can I be truly happy without looking for outside sources. Is this even possible? To love and be loved is happiness to me, so I'm not so sure that it's possible at this very moment for me to tell you how I can make myself happy. I'm searching for that one thing within myself that I can go to when I'm feeling unhappy. No one else is going to be able help me find the true source of my own happiness. It's mine and mine alone to find and to know and live and to be.
Strength. It's going to take a lot of strength to find it, this source of happiness within myself that I'm so willing to give everyone else but can't quite live off on my own.
Like a steady stream of water in the desert that everyone gets to feed off while I stand as the source, being drained until I'm left dry. Standing, waiting for some storm to fill me up, only to be drained again.
I have no option but to find my own source. I can't keep waiting to be filled.
Hey when and if you find it, tell me about it.. maybe I can mine too!!
ReplyDeleteDeep. I agree. Sometimes we forget we have make ourselves happy
ReplyDeleteTo be HAPPY something has to HAPPEN! Happiness Is just a temporary feeling, but true JOY is like a spring deep down in your soul and when you are able to tap into that spring your Joy will be Everlasting and Endless! Finding this true Joy is easier said then done..... But I promise you one thing I have learned, it's not found in a person, circumstances or even earthly relationships!! This was good thanks for sharing.... Got me thinking about my inner JOY!
ReplyDeleteHappiness is a state of mind and directly proportional to your ability to change your perception of your condition or situation.
ReplyDeletewhat a lot of people don't understand is that to be happy with the world, you have to be happy with who you are as a person because our world is a mirror of how we feel about ourselves. As your mom has discovered, when you're happy with who you are the problems don't go away, but you have the ability to deal with them and still retain your inner happiness.
My biggest problem is that I loved everyone except the most important person in my life. . . me. When you care about and love who you are, it influences your choices into what's not only beneficial for others, but also what's good for you. Contrary to what they say, you can only give out so much love before you start running out and you start feeling bitter and resentful for people always inveigling themselves into your life.
What you need in your life is someway to give back to yourself through a creative process like gardening, writing, cooking, singing, any kind of art, music, or just about anything that you can control where, when and how you do it. Something that's truly your own.
For me, it's my photography and writing. It's something that comes from inside me and validates who I am as a person and tells the world, "I AM WORTH SOMETHING." The only person I need to make happy with what I do is me.
You're so spot on that you can't wait for something to fill the void inside of you. The simple truth is that there is no inner void except for the one we create, and we can't put anything else inside that void except something that comes directly from within.
The strength you'll need is the ability to put yourself first, which indeed is very difficult for someone like you. I feel there are times when you give to others what should rightfully be yours. Of course, we love those around us and we'd give them anything, but there must come a time when we must do something for ourselves, even if it means consequences for our actions.
That's another thing - consequences. What many don't realize is that in order to get better, we'll sometimes have to go through a painful, unpleasant process of seeing things for what they are. We pray for things to get better, but we don't want to be hurt by the process, and sometimes that can't happen. Sometimes, it's very painful and you will have to endure the process alone.
But that's life. Just was we have to have resistance to build muscles when we're working out, the need to have suffering and adversity in order to build our spiritual muscles. I advise that you embrace the hard times for what they are - a balance of the good times. Just as good times can't last forever, the upside is that neither can the bad. It's simply not possible. Sure, it can last a long time, but all we have to do is outlast them.
You're on your way, honey. Acknowledging and seeking are the first steps. You will get there, I have no doubt. As always, I love you very much.
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